New challenge, New beginings

My name is jasmine and i weigh 210lbs. i know some people may not think that is alot but to a 5'5" 26 yr woman who cant walk up 3 flights of stairs to her apt without getting winded and can only fit 1/4 of her wardrobe that is alot. i dont feel good in my own body because i have been smaller and that was comfortable for me although at the time i thought i needed to lose more weight. but i know now that this weight is not comfortable i cant go thru the rest of my life being this size because i will never be truly happy with myself. i want to be more healthy and aware of what im putting in my body! i have to be a conscious eater because when im not then i dont tell myself not to eat that second slice of cake or dont eat that bag of m&m's from the zach machine. and the whole type diabetes scares a me lil seeing as how both my mom and dad have it and it runs through my family.
so me and my best friend have decided to do "mini" weight loss challenges! she is getting married next june and since i have the honor of being one of her maids of honor, decided why not start now! so here it is our first 2 week challenge will start tomorrow on thursday oct 23rd and end on thursday nov 6th. we will have points thats we get for accomplishing daily goals and challenge goals
points are:
2 points for every 30 minutes exercise
2 points for following your calorie needs for the day
2 points for posting what you ate on a daily basis,
1 point for making a blog entry
5 points for meeting two week non-weight related goal
10 points for meeting two week weight loss goal

starting tomorrow my daily calorie intake should be no more than 1900 but no less then 1500.. my challenge goal is to lose 2lbs and work out 6 days a week for 30 mins. my non weight related goal is to not drink soda for the entire 2 weeks! which is hard b.c i live with someone that drinks soda to survive!! :) however i can no longer do that so im putting in my goals list probably a few times through out our challenges! in the long run i want to 50-60lbs by next june and more imediately like this december id like to be able to fit into my size 18 ae jeans.. and not fit like i laid down on the bed and sucked in while i zipped up my pants! i mean like i can stand zip them up and feel comfortable. i know clothes is probably a shallow reason to want to lose weight but i think clothes can help express ones inner being and when i cant where clothes that help me express that then i dont feel good about how i look. so yeah clothes definately rank up there for me on reasons to lose weight!

i have to admit, it gonna be hard to go from mindlessly eating to conscious eating because food is such a comfort for me and a boredom reliever that not eating whenever it crosses my mind is going to be hard. but as been told before anything is life worth having isnt easy. and why would call this a challenge if it isnt in fact a challenge which is defined as to confront or defy boldly or to invite competition.. while i know that this a challenge against my friend i think the biggest competetion to beat will ultimately be myself. to be able to overcome my own laziness and self doubt and cravings will definately be the hardest part of this!.
ok so this long enough but here it is... challenge #1